yo

okay so i love you so much and i’m crying because reading that just made me really emotional because i’ve never been this close with anyone before and you’re just so fucking perfect as a friend like i couldn’t ask for anyone better and like sometimes you piss me the fuck off and sometimes i piss you the fuck off but it’s okay because it works and it’s fine and we love each other through everything and i feel so comfortable talking to you and even though we’ve had like weird history or whatever we’ve gotten over it and all that really matters is that we’re best friends and i’m crying writing this and i love you and i’ll always be there for you because you fucking deserve a friend who is there for you, and i want to be that friend ok you’re the fucking best and you deserve to be surrounded by people who tell you that and yeah i’m just really really thankful to have you as a friend like honestly when i pray i thank god for you every day because i can’t imagine going through high school or just life in general and not knowing you, or laughing with you, and i just wanted you to know how much you mean to me because i’m another year older and this year has been really fucking good thanks to you

01. Your Song- Ellie Goulding// 02. Nicest Thing- Kate Nash// 03. Nothing- Lewis Watson// 04. Let Her Go- Passenger// 05. A Perfect Sonnet- Bright Eyes// 06. Somebody That I Used To Know- Elliott Smith// 07. 505- Arctic Monkeys// 08. Ashes And Wine- A Fine Frenzy// 09. Sometimes (I Wish)- City and Colour// 10. Perth- Bon Iver// 11. Ghost- Sky Ferreira// 12. Naive- The Kooks// 13. Creep- Radiohead// 14. Heart Skipped A Beat- The xx// 15. I Want You Back- The Civil Wars// 16. Love- Daughter// 17. I’m Not The One- The Black Keys// 18. Jesus Christ- Brand New// 19. Little Hell- City and Colour// 20. Lies- Marina & The Diamonds// 21. We Might As Well Be Strangers- Keane// 22. Your Ex-Lover Is Dead- Stars// 23. Cornerstone- Arctic Monkeys// 24. Perfect- The Smashing Pumpkins// 25. I Didn’t Understand- Elliot Smith

you can’t just say things like you used to be like that, because you still are. you’re probably the most loyal person i know, and you’re still outgoing and i know you try to talk to the shy kids and make them feel comfortable and you’re insane and stupid and crazy with me and don’t you dare say you’re not kind because you’re the only person that understands me, and you’re the only one who tries to comfort me, and you’re kind of breaking my heart right now because you don’t deserve to think that about yourself okay you’re amazing and you should know that you don’t deserve to think that you’re not crazy and loud and kind and loyal because you fucking are

and if that annoyance causes them to lose someone like you as a friend, then fuck them because honestly i don’t see how anyone could let you out of their life, even if they get annoyed at you. hell, i get annoyed at you. you get annoyed at me. but i can’t picture myself without you in my life and that sounds lame but it’s true.

you have to be relient on people, kayla, we all do. and please don’t think i’ll ever leave you. and i know that probably doesn’t hold much weight with everything right now but i swear i won’t. no matter how annoyed i get, because i fucking love you, okay? i really do.